Thank you for posing this for me shay<3  Well, I guess, First of all a Hello is in order...Hello!, Im guessing that none of you are currently reading this, and well i hope you do, becuase ive missed guys quite alot, So like, Stop slacking. get back here. Now. Before i bring out the Whip.
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Shes Heaven sent,
With eyes of an angel
And a heart of gold
Not a second i didnt pray
For this, For you.
But i cant tell her
Just how beautiful
Just how Specail she is
Ill hold on to a peice of her
its an Eternity of bliss
Open your eyes,
Light up this Nightsky.
And im so in love with you.
Your the never ending dream
Your heaven sent, and it shows
Your the wish that Came true
But, I'll never deserve you
something so specail
So precious so fragile
I can feel you on my fingertips
I can feel you all around me
im savouring every moment
I'll hold you close And never let go

so it has recently come to my attention that all, or almost all, of the DP's are still up and running.

;]

considering we all talked about suicide and cutting and all that, now we're all grown up and content. kind of. ish... well, atleast we're all still alive.

be glad of that.

im very, very happie to know that rene, maura, adam and sami are still in touch.

we made it, eh?

bang bang bang, its for you doll.
pick up that ringing object and smile as you hear his voice
sounding so desperate to see you, hold you
does it make you feel needed?
walk to your room to collect your your bag and jacket
and then slowly, torturesly stop onto the sidewalk
go to him as he stands on uneven ground
waiting nervously for his onlie one
smile your widest, someone is willing to die for you
he holds you there, eye to eye you hold a secret conversation
and then turn, float like you're in heaven and theres nothing that can reallie stop you two now
grin as you catch him stealing a glance at you
just you and him now
nothink, no-one else anymore
walk right into that gorgeous sunset and decide your future
a sunny beach holding each other tight
or a plane crash bonding you that bit more?

you're beautiful.

isnt that what every guy and girl wants to hear when they wake up in the morning? before they go to bed?

yes. it is.

you know, i know quite a few people who would say that to me everytime i look at them. they

re my lovers, my friends. the most gorgi people in my world. it doesnt matter the slightest if they're boy-crazy, emo-lovers, tomboys or goths; they're styll my loverlies.

no, they are not imaginary. i do not talk to them in my sleep, or when im alone.

normally, i see them five days a week, unless they dont bother to show up, which they do or i send them murder threats.

hugging them makes me feel all warm inside, and then they flash that doll=-like smile of theirs, and i am melting infront of the world. they're that person who can 'turn my frown upside down'. they'll say slipknot is the shahmex even if they've never heard a single song, they'll get on the radio and dedicate a spill canvas song to me, they'll say it's okay to hit them if it helps, they'll get the [coolest] hoodie for me if they get one for themselves, they'll write me the sweetest note just to cheer me up, and call back after a two-hour long conversation and say, "damn, forgot to say i love you." and make my happiness bubble out of my mouth! they'll come over on the hottest day to help me with the hardest subject even if it means missing their favourite movie, they'll tell me i look hawt even when my trousers are smothered in mud, they'll say the cute guy was tottaly staring at me even when he's not in school, they'll lend me their cherry flavoured [vans] they'll [durh!] help me clean my room,  they wont mind my star, and they will almost always leave a good impression on my parents.

have you ever been so in love?

thankee deadee. ^^

i have some new poems which i cant be bothered to type right now...but i shall, soon.

April 18th is the 11th Annual Day Of Silence(Read)
Get ready for campuses all over the country to be a little quieter. On Wednesday, April 18, 2007 students nationwide will be commemorating the national Day of Silence. They will be quiet all day to protest the discrimination, harassment and abuse—in effect, the silencing—faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender students and their allies in schools.

The Day of Silence, a project of GLSEN, will be held during school hours. Over 6,000 participants are expected to be silent on April 18, wearing stickers and passing out 'speaking cards' that read:

"Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the
Day of Silence, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies in schools. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harassment, prejudice, and discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward fighting these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today. What are you going to do to end the silence?"

GLSEN's 2005 National School Climate Survey found that more than 64% of LGBT students report verbal, sexual or physical harassment at school and 29% report missing at least a day of school in the past month out of fear for their personal safety. The Day of Silence is one way students and their allies are making anti-LGBT bullying, harassment and name-calling unacceptable in America's schools.

About the Day of Silence
The Day of Silence, a project of GLSEN, is a nationwide, student-led event during which thousands of high schools and colleges protest the oppression of lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender youth. For more information and a complete collection of organizing materials, visit www.dayofsilence.org.

Someone holds a black bag infront of my eyes

Blocking my vision from everything outside

Is it reallie something that will help me overcome these fear?

Don’t utter those fake words to me

No matter what you day, whenever I need you, you’re nowhere to be seen

I don’t want your sympathy, your pity

Stay away, please stay away from me

I hear you say that tomorrow is another day, but think about it

Do you honestly expect me to be here?

Cos every word of yours that pokes me in the heart

A line erupts, a crimson line on my arm

So before I finally go away

Take these words I never had the guts to say

STOP TRYING.

On this uneventful day (other then the event of my effing 16th birthday) i, Akima, one of the main co-founders of this website, would like to invite back the onlie people who actually cared and liked this gosh-darn site.

then i would like to assure Adam, my emo sex( no, i havent forgotten!) that no, DPS is not dead. we are indeed styll alive.

so please, rene, adam, sami, rishi and the other people. if you would kindly get your effing arses back to this site, it would be very much appriciated.

thank you and goodbye.